useless winson

sometimes, i feel that i doesn't mean much to anyone...
when i ask myself wht's the meaning of living in this world,
i can't find the answer

Once again...i cant control myself

today....i do nothing..cant even concentrate when i wanna to do something...
just becoz in the morning my teacher ask 1 student to teach us to create a new blog.
2 years...
i have been single for 2 years!!
i have tried multitude of ways to force myself not think abt u anymore!!!
i try to be busy all the time!!
i don wan to look back my blog anymore!!
i don wan to fall back into the world of love!!
becoz of having my own blog, i go to my blog...my best friend want to look through my blog..so i just let it be...
i really think that i'm superman...can control myself very well..
unfortunately, all my sad memories pop up...!!
my friend msg me said that she felt sad after read my blog and she also said : u deserve a better girl...dun worry..
i told her that u're the best..then she said she'll pray 4 me so tat the girl understand me and soon get back to me..
i ask her to pray for letting u become not the best.
7.00 p.m.
i go to the website that i don dare to look at...your blog...
i cant control my tears anymore...
it just like simple diffusion...the tear molecules diffuse out by its own...
why? why? why i'm so weak?!
i always tot that the scar on your heart is as serious as me...
but it seem that i'm wrong...
my friend...wht god are u praying at?
the thing that u pray for me really comes true...
i don knw wht's wrong with me
why i feel glad that u can recover swiftly...
told u something...
i'm not a lier!!
u knw wht?
on 13/2/2009
i really bought a valentine's present for u...
3 of my friends know tat.. we went together..
my sis said this is the 1st time i bought a present to my girlfriend.
u got no idea how serious i am to you.
however,i got no chance to giv the present to u anymore..

I'm a LUCKY boy

23/10/10
tat saturday 8 a.m,
i went for school becoz gt some activity...
then at 9 a.m i when back home with my new motor (just bought it for 4 month)
is just 3 km from my house to school...
in such a short distance,
i involve in accident...
i'm riding along the straight road
and suddently
a lorry came frm the opposite road and just turn in to the junction when a reach..
i apply emergency break but is too late...
the lorry bang me..
and just keep on go into the junction without stop..
luckily my friend's car just behind me..
he quickly stop there and block the car behind him to avoid i kena bang again..
cause tat time i was fainted..
i awake at car and just remember tat time my mother sent me to hospital...
when i reach hospital..
i sat on the wheel chair and
the 1st question tat the doctor ask me was : HARI INI HARI APA?

then i was like can remember everything...
my head was damn pain when i think for the answer
then the doctor just stop me frm thinking...

my whole body was in pain..
i cant even take up my right hand
and walk properly for 1 week..

i reported at police station on the 3rd day
i stay at hospital 2 days 1 night.
the lorry driver already go for report on tat day...
he reported tat i bang his lorry behind...
what the....
at last the sarjan go look at my motor and he know is tat fellow bang me...
straight away saman tat guy...

becoz of tis accident,
i kena marah by all my relatives for not riding carefully.
everytime gt ppl scold my mum why don let me drive a car,
then my mum will come and scold me....
cant afford to buy a car...wht to do?

now my body is ok but my right hand still in pain...
cant take heavy things
cant apply too much energy...

teacher said i bang by a lorry still not seriously injured..
she said i'm so lucky becoz i'm a good and kind boy^^
she ask me to keep it on :)

WHY?? can someone tell me WHY? why good girl always belongs to others????

原来期望得越大...就会越失望

17/07那天是我的生日，

从12.00 a.m开始，

我就一直很注意我的手机，

只要手机一响...我就会马上拿起来看，

每响一次都让我很期待，

为的是什么？

就只是为了希望你对我说的四个字：生日快乐

我不期望你会打电话给我...

只希望你会发一通简单的讯息给我就足够了...

这简单的四个字对你来说可能算不了什么...

可是...

对我来说...能从你那里听到这四个字

就能够让我开心一整天...

因为至少我知道，

你还把我当成你朋友...

一直到晚上11.59我依然在期待着你的讯息...

最终，

你还是选择把我忘了....

我从不相信人...能够把曾经深爱过的对象完全忘掉

可是...你却做到了

已经1年多了...

为什么

我始终还是放不开........

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.

when we were fell in love with each other...

we smile together...

we hang out together...

we everyday sms...

then finally i kiss u...

but...

1 day...i don knw wht i had did

you suddenly be very very cold to me...

i was very scared for losing you...

however...

you leaved me...

i tried my best to get back together with you...

but you are too cold...

are you cold blooded??

at last...

our LOVE end up with my tear.

actually...i have never ever do anythings that sorry to you when i'm with you

7月28日

7.28这个日子,
我是永远都不会忘记的,
因为,
它是在我心目中很重要的一个人的生日...
但是,
我却只能在这里默默的祝她生日快乐...
还加上了我深深的祝福~
朋友们~
当你们看到了我的blog,
也帮帮我祝福她吧!
因为,
她对我来说,
真的很重要!!!
我,
希望她,
能永远幸福....