Thursday, May 12, 2011

useless winson

sometimes, i feel that i doesn't mean much to anyone...
when i ask myself wht's the meaning of living in this world,
i can't find the answer

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Once again...i cant control myself

today....i do nothing..cant even concentrate when i wanna to do something...
just becoz in the morning my teacher ask 1 student to teach us to create a new blog.
2 years...
i have been single for 2 years!!
i have tried multitude of ways to force myself not think abt u anymore!!!
i try to be busy all the time!!
i don wan to look back my blog anymore!!
i don wan to fall back into the world of love!!
becoz of having my own blog, i go to my blog...my best friend want to look through my blog..so i just let it be...
i really think that i'm superman...can control myself very well..
unfortunately, all my sad memories pop up...!!
my friend msg me said that she felt sad after read my blog and she also said : u deserve a better girl...dun worry..
i told her that u're the best..then she said she'll pray 4 me so tat the girl understand me and soon get back to me..
i ask her to pray for letting u become not the best.
7.00 p.m.
i go to the website that i don dare to look at...your blog...
i cant control my tears anymore...
it just like simple diffusion...the tear molecules diffuse out by its own...
why? why? why i'm so weak?!
i always tot that the scar on your heart is as serious as me...
but it seem that i'm wrong...
my friend...wht god are u praying at?
the thing that u pray for me really comes true...
i don knw wht's wrong with me
why i feel glad that u can recover swiftly...
told u something...
i'm not a lier!!
u knw wht?
on 13/2/2009
i really bought a valentine's present for u...
3 of my friends know tat.. we went together..
my sis said this is the 1st time i bought a present to my girlfriend.
u got no idea how serious i am to you.
however,i got no chance to giv the present to u anymore..